I woke up at 4:19 am today

I woke up at 4:19 am today. Not because I was hungry — just because I seem to have lost the ability to sleep properly. Also, I got up to pee about 500 times during the night because of all the water I’ve been drinking! It was most inconvenient. Anyway, I stayed in bed until my alarm went off at 5:00 am, and then I got up and prepared today’s lunch in advance: Haloumi & Asparagus Salad. I have a feeling I’ll be doing this quite often otherwise I risk falling back into not-so-healthy food choices. It means always being one step ahead, which was the way I used to operate until I started feeling so lethargic. I hope once my health improves that improvement will transfer to other areas of my life.

I was eating breakfast by 5:30 am: Blueberry & Almond Brekkie Quinoa, which was only saved by the blueberries. I’m not sure I’m a fan of quinoa is this form — probably because I’ve only eaten it as part of my smoked chicken quinoa salad, with lots of roasted capsicum, kalamata olives, red onion, Persian feta, rocket, parsley, chives, and an olive oil, balsamic and lemon juice dressing, scattered with toasted pine nuts — but I’m sure I’ll get used to it.

At 6:30 am I was in the lab and prepping the experimental diets for my ant colonies. For some strange reason I was particularly drawn to the 20% sugar solution and the honeydew mimic… After feeding my colonies, I recorded my observations every 15 minutes from 7:00 am to 8:00 am, slightly envious of my ants’ freedom to guzzle as much as they could in that hour. My morning was quite busy so I didn’t have a chance to think about food too much, which is one of my biggest problems: if I’m bored I’m likely to indulge in procrasti-eating.

I enjoyed the Haloumi & Asparagus Salad for lunch but in my excitement I forgot to take a photo of it, so you’ll just have to make do with my description. I ate it cold. The haloumi was golden and deliciously salty and the meatiness of its texture definitely filled the void in my belly. The asparagus was still crunchy and very flavoursome, while the baby spinach leaves were crisp. The whole dish was drizzled with the tartness of freshly squeezed lemon juice and a sprinkle of ground black pepper. I would certainly make this dish again. I think my husband would have preferred it alongside a scotch fillet steak (to own the truth I would have enjoyed a steak, too) but c’est la vie.

Tonight, Sweet Potato Soup with Lentils & Pancetta was on the menu and I’ve never enjoyed those morsels (however tiny) of cured pork more! It was perhaps a bit hot weather-wise for soup, but it was tasty nonetheless and another dish I’d whip up again. My stomach started to grumble while it was cooking, even though it had only been four hours since my last meal.

For me, succeeding with this programme will be about overcoming my obsession with food. I think about it far too often and it wouldn’t be a problem if I didn’t follow up with eating almost as often, but that’s the pattern I’ve fallen into: it’s only one little packet of chips or it’s only two slices of cheese or it’s a homemade duck curry so I can eat more because it’s not takeaway or I don’t eat pasta very often so when I do I can justify devouring two serves in one sitting or one slice of bacon isn’t quite enough but two is too much but I’ll eat both because otherwise what will I do with the leftovers? It’s even worse when I’m exercising more because somehow I think I’ve earned the after-dinner ice cream or the extra slice of (homemade) pizza or the row of chocolate: I’ve sweated today so I deserve this.

I’ve never been starving, I mean actually starving, so I don’t know where this obsession with food comes from. Both my husband and I love cooking and we prepare a lot of wholesome meals at home and very rarely order takeaway or eat out. We love eating at home and trying new recipes and my habit for many years now is to plan the weekly menu and then go grocery shopping once a week for everything we need (sometimes we do a mid-week shop for fresh fruit and vegetables). I love the whole process from beginning to end, but it often ends with an inability to control consumption speed and portion size, and I eat too fast and too much because I eat too fast.

Exercise today consisted of a HIIT session: warm-up walk for two minutes, followed by three reps of 40-second running bursts and 20-second catch-my-breath-my-heart-is-pounding-my-lungs-are-bursting recovery periods, followed by a cool-down walk for two minutes. Only seven minutes altogether, but the “endolphins” (watch the video below — a scene from Postcards from the Edge — to get the joke) certainly had time to kick in, and it was on top of 10 minutes of incidental exercise throughout the day, which was probably walking around campus.

Endolphin rush.

Apple Watch Stats

  • Move 646/520 calories

  • Exercise 17/30 minutes

  • Stand 15/12 hours

  • Steps 7,398

Calories consumed = 790